Monday, June 4, 2012

--Risen From Hell--

I’m not dead
I was in hell
Before too long
I began to burn
My heart cold as ice
Slowly running out of the numbness
That protected my partial sanity

I’m dying inside
I can’t fight this pain
Nothing to numb
This ache of mine
It’s too much to bear
I’m afraid to watch me burn

My eyes weakened
Relying on my senses
I could hear the crackling
Of my internal fire
The smell of the dense smoke
Filled the air
Left with only my soul
To pick and weave through

I’m dying inside
I can’t fight this pain
Nothing to numb
This ache of mine
It’s too much to bear
I’m afraid to watch me burn

The emotions
Flooding my veins with poison
Turning my blood black and cold
It was now or never
Slowly burn and blow away
Or
Rise from this hell of mine
It won’t beat me
I haven’t fulfilled my purposes
It took too long
Before I rose to the surface

I’m dying inside
I can’t fight this pain
The numbness is harsh and sour
It sickens me
I won’t let me burn

My sight restores
The sun so bright
The air so crisp
I dive into the smooth serene water
It feels so heavenly
On my freshly burned scars
Soaking it all in
I had almost forgotten
How much beauty this planet held
What I left behind
Is free of my newly reclaimed skin
It will never be disdained
I’m not dead!
I’ve risen from my depths
Ready to take back
What I once had

It was now or never
Slowly burn or rise!!

--Day 30th~Seroquel XR 300mg~Remeron 60mg--

--Good Morning...(Taiping)--

Every morning
the world
is created.
Under the orange

sticks of the sun
the heaped
ashes of the night
turn into leaves again

If it is your nature
to be happy
you will swim away along the soft trails

for hours, your imagination
alighting everywhere.
And if your spirit
carries within it....

--Day 60th~Seroquel XR 300mg~Remeron 60mg--

--Day 60th~Seroquel XR 300mg~Remeron 60mg--